I began writing this blog two days ago, while sick in bed with a  never ending cough. I really did not and do not know where to begin.  I have written many things for myself over the years:
The first things I wrote were when I was a teenager…small poems on small cards, full of the pain of the tortures of falling in love with the wrong people. Then I began writing some macabre type stories, murders hidden in unused subway stations, and strange cat stories mostly influenced by Poe and listening to a mid night radio show (the radio under my pillow) called a Voice in the Night. I remember the readers name being Sidney Gross or Grass, there were sound effects along with the stories, from both Poe and Guy de Maupassant..  I was also a Vampire by the time I was 16 or so.  That is I dressed in black, had a lavender colour pressed powder make up made up for me at Charles of the Ritz dyed my hair jet black, no lipstick but lots of eye makeup…I used to tell people I was from Transylvania and absolutely loved Halloween when I flew around the building we lived in opened the big glass and caste iron front doors to let kids come in for trick or treat…the grand lobby with its black and white marble and terrazzo brass inlaid  floors, old magic carpets under two huge marble topped tables one on each side of the lobby mirroring each other and the black marble staircases with always glowing brass banisters that led up to the elevators.  The perfect mid-evil lobby for a young Vampire to hang out in.

But I am wondering off..and need a focus to write this..Should it be about my life? or ideas? philosophies? life’s work? dreams?  I think all of these encompass my life but who would want to read about this life?  The bigger question is why?  Why do I even want to write about it. I lived it and am still living it.  We each have our own lives, and I guess wanting other to know more about us is an ego driven desire, or an explanation for how come I am who I am now? I don’t know if I even have the courage to allow anyone to read this.  What am I afraid of? Jump in…I should just jump into that turning rope,
and keep my feet moving, jump in, jump in…don’t even edit this one just do it! 2014